will i ever fall in luv again??

met someone new on sat....he's a fren's fren......he was on my mind since then.....put tt on FB n ppl started askin me who is 'he'......went for salsa n jialiang saw my fb comment....he juz start his kpo-in again...haha...

i wonder.....part of me would wanna settle down...but part of me doesn't want to....issit cos i haven't met the one who can make me wanna settle down.....?or hv i lost the confidence to trust again....??i dunno....i'm back to being a confused individual again....now tt my career is juz getting in place.....i dun wanna start a r/s.....i wanna juz establish my career first.....but sometimes i wish i hv tt someone to rely on......tt someone i can call anytime.....had tt sudden urge to call someone when i was at work doin stuff myself.......first person who comes to my mind.....?*BLANK*

no one~!! but feels kinda empty....probably it really is time to search for the special one.....or shd i juz b patient n wait....??haha~

my "PA" msg me on msn....he found a job~! happy for him....:) he promise me a meal when he gets his first pay~haha......yeah~!it's weird how we juz contact again after so many yrs.......lets c if we're gonna drift again.....haha...:p

~~in search of the feeling again~~

long weekend is approaching...~

med review today...no major probz....juz needa do a lil retest for some checks.....n took a booster for hep B...ouch~ it aches really....:s

needa go back for few other vaccine jabs....Zzz....*double ouch* mum drop me off after review...hehe:p dun needa take bus/cab...ehehe:p
had a meetin wif vanessa b4 the bois come in......so scared i'll b told the offer is called off...:s n.........YEAH~!! she's keeping me~!~!~!~! my job is secured for now~!!!!!hehehehe:p i'm a happy happy gal~!...hehe:p

it's quiet in sch today....only 3 bois came......missing my 2 fav bois.....both went for holz......can't wait for them to b back....hahaha....did baskets for easter hunt tml.....n dyed eggs for easter......so fun.....~!i've literally a green thumb after dying the eggs....hahaha....walked to the bus stop wif shanida after work.....n were talkin abt starting a new r/s....gotta start the "getting-to-know-u" process.....all the butterflies in the stomach....all the uncertainties.....got me thinking......will i b able to do tt?dun rem goin thru much of tt process when i was wif john....it's juz so.....natural....yet swt......hehehe:p oh well...dun hv time for tt.....gonna juz concentrate on my newly found job n my dances~!!!!!hehehe:p oh....n thesis...sighz....hoho~

met my galz for dinner after work.....wanted to hv sakura buffet....but simin hv a small appetite....so we went for jap food at hereen instead since chua suggested it n said it's yummy...hehehe:pso hungry......pea came juz in time to decide what she wants....ordered n yupz!~!~ food's pretty gd~~!hehe:p

had a great time catching up...it's a pity hanni can't join us....dinner's gd...dessert's gd.....n yupz~! gonna catch a movie on sat~!hahaha....it's gonna b a long weekend~!!n it's gonna b a HAPPENING one~!!!hehehe:p

easter hunt in sch tml for the bois...it's gonna b fun...~!!hehe:p then it's another nite of salsa social~!!!hehe:p
en la pasion on fri...~!exciting...~!hehehe:p
movie wif my dear galz n prob phuture on sat....~
sun breakie or brunch wif jialiang n jacky...~!

woo~hoo~!!busy busy weekend~!hehehe:p
gosh...i really shd settle down n do my thesis...~!:s

miss chua~!~dare to say pea n i childish hor....ya dun pretend pretend...~!I swear ya're in it~!!!hahaha~~ya're my BEST FRIEND~!!!hahaha...~~

~~happy life~~

happy april's fool~!

it's the official start of my perm job today~! nt really excited cos i've been in this for the past 2 mths....but am really glad to b part of the team now....hehe:p suppose to get up at 8...but was too tired...got up at 9...gosh...had to catch a cab again....oh well....

rush rush rush outta da hse...didn't get lunch wasn't feelin really gd......reached sch a lil off 10....get some stuff done n went out to get lunchy wif shanida.....didn't enjoy lunchy....food wasn't gd...but juice was real gd~!hahaha...

there'll b a new intern comin in today....she's a lil late but she's nice n frenly.....another german speakin gal....too bad our german boi is on leave for 2 weeks.....shortly after claudia came in n she told me a super gd news~!i'm gonna watch her do therapy today cos vanessa wants to train me to b a therapist!~!~! this is so so so SO exciting~!!!hehehe:p i'm really really over the moon~!!hehehe:p can't control my excitement...~!hehe:p lucky it's nt an april fools joke....~!hehe:p

couldn't believe it..~!things r really going so super well for me~!i'm so so so grateful~!so glad everything to gettin so so so much better for me in my job.......things r picking up.....the other problems will definately b resolved gradually......:)

went back to uni for EVO's D&D after work....meant to stay for juz abit but when i was abt to leave saw lishan so stay n catch up wif her.....was a pretty gd catchin up session wif the rest of EVO members...:) saw this really cute guy....but he's nt an EVO member...dunno where's he from.....he walked pass afew times n we 'exchanged smiles'...hehe:p he turn out to b someone tricia knows.....haha....but he left b4 we could really talked....oh well....too bad....hehe:p

stay till the end n head home....too tired to do work....n now.....it's bed time~!ZZzz.....

~~glad things r gettin back in place...:)~~

zoning sunday~...

reach home at 6ish am this morn from last nite's big party~! had fun fun~! but bday gal was down....haha~ lucky angela's fren could send her home.....so honey, yy n i went for supper~!hehe:p

so tired after i got home....slpt till 2ish pm...didn't wanna wakie too late....but was super tired still...tried to start on my lit review but couldn't get anything outta my super intoxicated brain....ZZzz...

stoned pretty much the whole noon....had dinner n cont' stoning....hahaha..~ no work done....juz camp infront of the tv....then got a surprise sms...~!jason msg me...haha....thou we juz exchange a few short n simple msges it kinda brightens my nite....hehe:p hasn't seen him in awhile...they wouldn't b at a fix bar anymore....so he was finally at the usual bar yesterday.....didn't getta talk to him much....too busy....juz offered him pea's bday cake....was nice to see him thou....haha~

nt in the mood to do anything...i'm juz gonna head to bed....haha....~ what a pleasant surprise to end my day.....hehe~

~~a lil something brings a smile...~~

lazy lazy day....~

JW seminar is due today...n i haven't even started~!am so so so dead....meant to start doin last nite...but was too tired after meri n lem's wedding.....knock out at 1ish last nite....meant to wakie at 11ish to do..but got up at 12ish....haha.....so dead....i'm such a lazy gal....~~



when i got up....instead of doin my work i did house work....*kick myself* while doin laundry hejie texted me askin if i wanna hv coffee since he's comin to my area to settle some stuff....since i haven't really had a proper chat wif him in ages i went....n partly was to run away from my assignment....hahaha....*bad gal*



since i'm goin out....went to run errands for mum n grandma.....had to go to da bank.....things seemed to b gettin worse.....locks to the drawers had to b changed n keys nv to leave us.....my heart aches.....so much money is lost....if i had deposited the money last week this might nt hv happen.....can't even let our guards lose at home......this is stressing everyone out.....lucky we're nt a rich family....else the typical hk drama scenes would happen......haha~ money can really turn everything bad......can still draw a line when frens hv issues wif money matters....but family....?how....?i'm really draining draining...........

y would the wanna eye tt lil bit of money....?first aunt almost wanted to file a police report......lucky she didn't.......i hope it will all b over soon.....but....looks like it's nt gonna happen in the near future......lets juz hope for the best.....

Time to get started on my JW seminar critique~!

~~hoping for things to get better~~

laugh of the day....~

eat the smallest first....the pea....then next...hv a drink of honey water.....followed by cherry...lastly drink the starfruit juice....tt's how it works....:p

thanx for the joke....haha~

tention....

leaving for japn in less than 12 hrs.....it's time to take a break from all the tention in sg......we're all mentally n physically drained tryin to accommodate......we've all been really patient....i wasn't the only one.....i'm nt the one suffering the most.....will b away n someone will b in a tough situation.....pls b strong.....hang on in there n things will come to light soon.....*keeping fingers cross*

bearing wif nonsense n hving to entertain all the attention seeking behaviours hv been a burden......what kinda fren back stabs till it's beyond recognition?i've been stabbed in the back till it's full.....i dun think there's any space for another 'knife' to b stabbed....haha~ i got so numb.....whenever i getta know abt something tt was told tt stabbed me in the back all tt comes to mind or i could say is "y am i nt surprise?"......all these yrs the trust i gave was betrayed....i've swollowed all the disappointments n feeling of betrayal in silence.....lucky for me....my bestie sees it all.....i dun care what was told abt me....whatever stories tt was cooked up n tales told to smear my name....whatever blame tt was put on me.....make me sound like i'm alwayz the devil the black sheep......as long as ya're happy......

i'm happy...i'm satisfied wif my life....y?i'm nt tt sadistic to b happy cos i was being betrayed n backstabbed by a so called fren....i'm happy n lucky cos i hv a v v v understanding bestie.....i dun need alot of frens.....all i need is support from 1 true fren.....who understands......n tt's YOU BESTIE~!!!!~!lucky for me.....i hv more than 1 supportive true fren....i hv a grp of darling frens who listens n was there for me......nv understand y would someone need so much attention.....ready to draw tt line...?we shall c.........


~~lucky to hv true frens by my side~~