eat the smallest first....the pea....then next...hv a drink of honey water.....followed by cherry...lastly drink the starfruit juice....tt's how it works....:p
thanx for the joke....haha~
Monday, February 16, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
tention....
leaving for japn in less than 12 hrs.....it's time to take a break from all the tention in sg......we're all mentally n physically drained tryin to accommodate......we've all been really patient....i wasn't the only one.....i'm nt the one suffering the most.....will b away n someone will b in a tough situation.....pls b strong.....hang on in there n things will come to light soon.....*keeping fingers cross*
bearing wif nonsense n hving to entertain all the attention seeking behaviours hv been a burden......what kinda fren back stabs till it's beyond recognition?i've been stabbed in the back till it's full.....i dun think there's any space for another 'knife' to b stabbed....haha~ i got so numb.....whenever i getta know abt something tt was told tt stabbed me in the back all tt comes to mind or i could say is "y am i nt surprise?"......all these yrs the trust i gave was betrayed....i've swollowed all the disappointments n feeling of betrayal in silence.....lucky for me....my bestie sees it all.....i dun care what was told abt me....whatever stories tt was cooked up n tales told to smear my name....whatever blame tt was put on me.....make me sound like i'm alwayz the devil the black sheep......as long as ya're happy......
i'm happy...i'm satisfied wif my life....y?i'm nt tt sadistic to b happy cos i was being betrayed n backstabbed by a so called fren....i'm happy n lucky cos i hv a v v v understanding bestie.....i dun need alot of frens.....all i need is support from 1 true fren.....who understands......n tt's YOU BESTIE~!!!!~!lucky for me.....i hv more than 1 supportive true fren....i hv a grp of darling frens who listens n was there for me......nv understand y would someone need so much attention.....ready to draw tt line...?we shall c.........
~~lucky to hv true frens by my side~~
bearing wif nonsense n hving to entertain all the attention seeking behaviours hv been a burden......what kinda fren back stabs till it's beyond recognition?i've been stabbed in the back till it's full.....i dun think there's any space for another 'knife' to b stabbed....haha~ i got so numb.....whenever i getta know abt something tt was told tt stabbed me in the back all tt comes to mind or i could say is "y am i nt surprise?"......all these yrs the trust i gave was betrayed....i've swollowed all the disappointments n feeling of betrayal in silence.....lucky for me....my bestie sees it all.....i dun care what was told abt me....whatever stories tt was cooked up n tales told to smear my name....whatever blame tt was put on me.....make me sound like i'm alwayz the devil the black sheep......as long as ya're happy......
i'm happy...i'm satisfied wif my life....y?i'm nt tt sadistic to b happy cos i was being betrayed n backstabbed by a so called fren....i'm happy n lucky cos i hv a v v v understanding bestie.....i dun need alot of frens.....all i need is support from 1 true fren.....who understands......n tt's YOU BESTIE~!!!!~!lucky for me.....i hv more than 1 supportive true fren....i hv a grp of darling frens who listens n was there for me......nv understand y would someone need so much attention.....ready to draw tt line...?we shall c.........
~~lucky to hv true frens by my side~~
Thursday, February 5, 2009
apprecitate my bestie even more....:)
day 3 of internship.....am really experiencing what vanessa told us during the staff meetin that it's never gonna be boring dealin with these kids.....like any of us....their mood is different everyday.....so they behave differently.....smartie boi is tired today....so he is throwing quite a bit of tantrums....nt wanting to complete his work.....competitive boi on the other hand is quite eager....very competitive....alwayz wanting to show himself off....competing wif smartie boi in his work......
parrot boi is throwing a tantrum today as well....but he's still deal-able wif the rewards each time he does his tasks well.....:) patience-testin boi is starting to challenge us....when asked to do painting he's nt doin it.....alwayz playin wif his specz.....cutie boi is runnin ard as usual......but nt ask much as the last few dayz......he can sit for quite awhile n is able to repeat after me the colours of the sticks.....
the outdoor time is what they alwayz look forward to.....smartie n competitive boi is alwayz on the swing....parrot boi is at the top of the slide most of the time....patience-testing boi is tryin to b funny today.....did nt hold on while in the swing...almost fell off....got a fright.....gave his time out for that....but he's still tryin his luck....kept wanting to do stuff wif the swing......VP handled him.....my all time fav cutie boi is alwayz running ard....at least he's willin to wear his shoes today......he trys to run down the slides instead of sliding down.....he knows i'll carry him down if he's standing in the middle of the slide and give him a lil spin....so he alwayz does tt.....he's a very swt boi....he'll give me a hug when i carry him....but can't keep carrying him....he's nt v light....hahaha....gets really tired......his eyes are really charming.....n his smile brightens up my day......workin wif them might b a lil challenging and tiring but i really enjoyed it....:) Vanessa said i'm doin a v gd job so far~!hehe:p so happy.....i hv hope for my masters now....hehe:p
met bestie for dinner n a lil shopping after work.....hehe:p got my longchamp bag from her....woo hoo~! new bag...~!!!so happy....hehehe:p went to sushi tei for dinner.....ehehe:p had a really gd dinner....was chattin chattin wif her all the way...updating her on my life when she's away.....told her abt my internship n complains n him.....went shoppin after dinner....had no intention of buying stuff.....but ended up gettin a scarf for my japan trip....n.....a new top~!hahaha.....bad hands....keep buying stuff......:s
I'm really thankful my best fren sees my 'sufferings in silence' n is so understanding........:)
Bestie...~!!!if ya're reading this...hehehe:p THANK YOU so so so SO SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING~!~!~!luv ya deep deep...~!!!hehehe:p am really thankful to hv ya in my life n as my bestest-est-est fren all these yrs.....*MuackzZzzzZZ* n of cos nt forgetting my wonderful gals....ya know who ya r yeah..;) thanx for all the support n understanding.....luv ya all...:) *HUGZZZZZzzzz*
~~hving one true frens beats hving many so-called-frens~~
parrot boi is throwing a tantrum today as well....but he's still deal-able wif the rewards each time he does his tasks well.....:) patience-testin boi is starting to challenge us....when asked to do painting he's nt doin it.....alwayz playin wif his specz.....cutie boi is runnin ard as usual......but nt ask much as the last few dayz......he can sit for quite awhile n is able to repeat after me the colours of the sticks.....
the outdoor time is what they alwayz look forward to.....smartie n competitive boi is alwayz on the swing....parrot boi is at the top of the slide most of the time....patience-testing boi is tryin to b funny today.....did nt hold on while in the swing...almost fell off....got a fright.....gave his time out for that....but he's still tryin his luck....kept wanting to do stuff wif the swing......VP handled him.....my all time fav cutie boi is alwayz running ard....at least he's willin to wear his shoes today......he trys to run down the slides instead of sliding down.....he knows i'll carry him down if he's standing in the middle of the slide and give him a lil spin....so he alwayz does tt.....he's a very swt boi....he'll give me a hug when i carry him....but can't keep carrying him....he's nt v light....hahaha....gets really tired......his eyes are really charming.....n his smile brightens up my day......workin wif them might b a lil challenging and tiring but i really enjoyed it....:) Vanessa said i'm doin a v gd job so far~!hehe:p so happy.....i hv hope for my masters now....hehe:p
met bestie for dinner n a lil shopping after work.....hehe:p got my longchamp bag from her....woo hoo~! new bag...~!!!so happy....hehehe:p went to sushi tei for dinner.....ehehe:p had a really gd dinner....was chattin chattin wif her all the way...updating her on my life when she's away.....told her abt my internship n complains n him.....went shoppin after dinner....had no intention of buying stuff.....but ended up gettin a scarf for my japan trip....n.....a new top~!hahaha.....bad hands....keep buying stuff......:s
I'm really thankful my best fren sees my 'sufferings in silence' n is so understanding........:)
Bestie...~!!!if ya're reading this...hehehe:p THANK YOU so so so SO SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING~!~!~!luv ya deep deep...~!!!hehehe:p am really thankful to hv ya in my life n as my bestest-est-est fren all these yrs.....*MuackzZzzzZZ* n of cos nt forgetting my wonderful gals....ya know who ya r yeah..;) thanx for all the support n understanding.....luv ya all...:) *HUGZZZZZzzzz*
~~hving one true frens beats hving many so-called-frens~~
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
nt enjoyin tue for once....
it's tue...but nt feelin v happy....nt tt i'm nt lookin forward to salsa.....but.....feelin quite down these few dayz......heapz of assignments to b done.....so sick n tired of essayz......nt motivated to start on my essay.....sighz......n he seemed to b backin off.......or am i too sensitive...??*shrugz* i dunno.....
oh well...went for piano lesson.....was nagged for nt practicing....hahaha~ n theory exam results r out.....didn't do well......got only a merit.....n was nagged by Mrs Ong for nt doin well in sections i shd....hoho~
went back to uni after piano to get the dvd for JW seminar critique.....head home....had dinner n it's time for bachata n salsa~!learnt a new body move for bachata....my back feels so stiff....it's like dividing the upper body into 3....n hving to isolate individual parts....tough tough...nt doin v well for bachata today...but still had fun....hehehe:p salsa is stressful today....haven't been dancing for more than a week.....rusty rusty......n forgot some moves....:p forgot how box step works.....almost forgetting how the sequence of box stop shine goes.....new stuff were taught.....but super off form today.....doin v v v badly in class.....couldn't get the steps rite.....hands n legs can't coordinate....Zzz.....frustrated wif myself.....~!
many of them r headin to union after class so yupz~!we r goin too~got like pointers abt today's move from jackson after class...n he said my steps r too big tt's y i alwayz travel when i do my turns......head down to union after with adeline.....got a couple of dances.....but i really really was horrible today....couldn't get the ques......wrong footwork.....everything's nt goin rite.....sighz.....need lots more practice......:(
feet hurts.....got a huge blister after dance.....oh well......too tired....off to bed..~!it's another tiring day tml.......work time.....gonna c my 2 dear lil bois.....it's gonna b thou 'takin care' of them....but am lookin forward to spending the afternoon wif the class.....:)
~~mood affects performance~~
oh well...went for piano lesson.....was nagged for nt practicing....hahaha~ n theory exam results r out.....didn't do well......got only a merit.....n was nagged by Mrs Ong for nt doin well in sections i shd....hoho~
went back to uni after piano to get the dvd for JW seminar critique.....head home....had dinner n it's time for bachata n salsa~!learnt a new body move for bachata....my back feels so stiff....it's like dividing the upper body into 3....n hving to isolate individual parts....tough tough...nt doin v well for bachata today...but still had fun....hehehe:p salsa is stressful today....haven't been dancing for more than a week.....rusty rusty......n forgot some moves....:p forgot how box step works.....almost forgetting how the sequence of box stop shine goes.....new stuff were taught.....but super off form today.....doin v v v badly in class.....couldn't get the steps rite.....hands n legs can't coordinate....Zzz.....frustrated wif myself.....~!
many of them r headin to union after class so yupz~!we r goin too~got like pointers abt today's move from jackson after class...n he said my steps r too big tt's y i alwayz travel when i do my turns......head down to union after with adeline.....got a couple of dances.....but i really really was horrible today....couldn't get the ques......wrong footwork.....everything's nt goin rite.....sighz.....need lots more practice......:(
feet hurts.....got a huge blister after dance.....oh well......too tired....off to bed..~!it's another tiring day tml.......work time.....gonna c my 2 dear lil bois.....it's gonna b thou 'takin care' of them....but am lookin forward to spending the afternoon wif the class.....:)
~~mood affects performance~~
Monday, February 2, 2009
internship day 1
CNY holz over.....it's first day of internship for me...~!think hving PMS....super emo in da cab on my way to work.....thought of him n tears almost rolled down.....dunno what went wrong....things seemed different now......everything seemed fine on wed.....but....oh well....gotta hold back cos can't start my first day of internship wif goldfish eyes.....hahah~ decide to text him cos he doesn't hv class today....mayb we could meet for dinner or something....but he can't do dinner today....suggested something else but.....aniwaez....couldn't really reply his msges when i reached the sch....
tried repling b4 the kids arrive at 1pm....then was too pre-occupied with gettin them to settle when they come....feelin excited...at the same time abit scared cos i dunno if i can handle them....first time workin wif kids wif autism....5 of them in total...boi 1 is a relatively bright kid....quite easy to handle except for his tantrums sometimes....was taught to juz ignore all the tantrums.....kid 2 is very cute...hv sensitive hearing...so he likes to cover his ears....he can't really talk n he likes runnin around.....very active boi....nt easy to handle.....kid 3 is quite different....he likes huggin n touching ppl.....repeatin what others say and gets violent sometimes as well......kid 4 wasn't used to the settings.....didn't join in the class activities till towards the end....he is very interactive and quite smart....and kid 5 is abit to the 'rude' side...have to keep reminding him to use the word 'please' and 'thank you' and speak in full sentences.....
really luv working with them today......thou it's nt easy cos hv to be very careful wif choice of words and can't used very negative words.... the easier part is praising them for their gd work...:) n also work kept him outta my mind.....which is gd~!haha...~
knocked off at 5....didn't hv to do much clearing up......went off n recce the bus stops ard....b4 meeting dearie for dinner....dunno if he's gonna meet me later.....asked if he wanna catch a movie since he's hving dinner wif his parents....but he's nt a fan of movie...out for coffee n he said he'll get back to me....hmm....whatever....
met up for dinner...went to wisma....then to sushi tei cos i feel like sushi....hehehe:p he replied sayin he had something to do....will meet me some other day....hmm..wonder when will tt day b.....sighz....aniwaez....had a gd chat over dinner......was telling her how diff his interests were from mine.....none matches so far...blah blah blah.....felt better after pouring it out....hehe:p thanx for listening and keeping me company dearie~!luv ya deep deep...~!ya know who ya r...:)
had a quiet walk home...haven't done tt in ages.......it calms me down alot really.....got home n msn as usual....hehe:p was tellin yann yann abt him.....n tt we do nt hv a common interest.....or mayb we hv yet to find any common interest.....n she ask if common interest is really tt impt.....isn't the feelin more impt....?got me thinkin....hmm....if there's the interest n no feeling does it work?but come to think of it.....what common interest does john n i hv....?issit true tt with the pressence of feeling there's a possibility to compromise...?too tired to think.....i dunno what he wants.....lost it....i forgot how does the feeling of fallin for someone feels n how if someone is showing interest........hohoh~prob my heart is numb......or prob i'm dumb....keke~ oh well......it's beyond my control.....hope things will come to light soon...~~i'm exhausted.......
~~is the feeling more impt than common interests?~~
tried repling b4 the kids arrive at 1pm....then was too pre-occupied with gettin them to settle when they come....feelin excited...at the same time abit scared cos i dunno if i can handle them....first time workin wif kids wif autism....5 of them in total...boi 1 is a relatively bright kid....quite easy to handle except for his tantrums sometimes....was taught to juz ignore all the tantrums.....kid 2 is very cute...hv sensitive hearing...so he likes to cover his ears....he can't really talk n he likes runnin around.....very active boi....nt easy to handle.....kid 3 is quite different....he likes huggin n touching ppl.....repeatin what others say and gets violent sometimes as well......kid 4 wasn't used to the settings.....didn't join in the class activities till towards the end....he is very interactive and quite smart....and kid 5 is abit to the 'rude' side...have to keep reminding him to use the word 'please' and 'thank you' and speak in full sentences.....
really luv working with them today......thou it's nt easy cos hv to be very careful wif choice of words and can't used very negative words.... the easier part is praising them for their gd work...:) n also work kept him outta my mind.....which is gd~!haha...~
knocked off at 5....didn't hv to do much clearing up......went off n recce the bus stops ard....b4 meeting dearie for dinner....dunno if he's gonna meet me later.....asked if he wanna catch a movie since he's hving dinner wif his parents....but he's nt a fan of movie...out for coffee n he said he'll get back to me....hmm....whatever....
met up for dinner...went to wisma....then to sushi tei cos i feel like sushi....hehehe:p he replied sayin he had something to do....will meet me some other day....hmm..wonder when will tt day b.....sighz....aniwaez....had a gd chat over dinner......was telling her how diff his interests were from mine.....none matches so far...blah blah blah.....felt better after pouring it out....hehe:p thanx for listening and keeping me company dearie~!luv ya deep deep...~!ya know who ya r...:)
had a quiet walk home...haven't done tt in ages.......it calms me down alot really.....got home n msn as usual....hehe:p was tellin yann yann abt him.....n tt we do nt hv a common interest.....or mayb we hv yet to find any common interest.....n she ask if common interest is really tt impt.....isn't the feelin more impt....?got me thinkin....hmm....if there's the interest n no feeling does it work?but come to think of it.....what common interest does john n i hv....?issit true tt with the pressence of feeling there's a possibility to compromise...?too tired to think.....i dunno what he wants.....lost it....i forgot how does the feeling of fallin for someone feels n how if someone is showing interest........hohoh~prob my heart is numb......or prob i'm dumb....keke~ oh well......it's beyond my control.....hope things will come to light soon...~~i'm exhausted.......
~~is the feeling more impt than common interests?~~
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