internship day 1

CNY holz over.....it's first day of internship for me...~!think hving PMS....super emo in da cab on my way to work.....thought of him n tears almost rolled down.....dunno what went wrong....things seemed different now......everything seemed fine on wed.....but....oh well....gotta hold back cos can't start my first day of internship wif goldfish eyes.....hahah~ decide to text him cos he doesn't hv class today....mayb we could meet for dinner or something....but he can't do dinner today....suggested something else but.....aniwaez....couldn't really reply his msges when i reached the sch....

tried repling b4 the kids arrive at 1pm....then was too pre-occupied with gettin them to settle when they come....feelin excited...at the same time abit scared cos i dunno if i can handle them....first time workin wif kids wif autism....5 of them in total...boi 1 is a relatively bright kid....quite easy to handle except for his tantrums sometimes....was taught to juz ignore all the tantrums.....kid 2 is very cute...hv sensitive hearing...so he likes to cover his ears....he can't really talk n he likes runnin around.....very active boi....nt easy to handle.....kid 3 is quite different....he likes huggin n touching ppl.....repeatin what others say and gets violent sometimes as well......kid 4 wasn't used to the settings.....didn't join in the class activities till towards the end....he is very interactive and quite smart....and kid 5 is abit to the 'rude' side...have to keep reminding him to use the word 'please' and 'thank you' and speak in full sentences.....

really luv working with them today......thou it's nt easy cos hv to be very careful wif choice of words and can't used very negative words.... the easier part is praising them for their gd work...:) n also work kept him outta my mind.....which is gd~!haha...~

knocked off at 5....didn't hv to do much clearing up......went off n recce the bus stops ard....b4 meeting dearie for dinner....dunno if he's gonna meet me later.....asked if he wanna catch a movie since he's hving dinner wif his parents....but he's nt a fan of movie...out for coffee n he said he'll get back to me....hmm....whatever....

met up for dinner...went to wisma....then to sushi tei cos i feel like sushi....hehehe:p he replied sayin he had something to do....will meet me some other day....hmm..wonder when will tt day b.....sighz....aniwaez....had a gd chat over dinner......was telling her how diff his interests were from mine.....none matches so far...blah blah blah.....felt better after pouring it out....hehe:p thanx for listening and keeping me company dearie~!luv ya deep deep...~!ya know who ya r...:)

had a quiet walk home...haven't done tt in ages.......it calms me down alot really.....got home n msn as usual....hehe:p was tellin yann yann abt him.....n tt we do nt hv a common interest.....or mayb we hv yet to find any common interest.....n she ask if common interest is really tt impt.....isn't the feelin more impt....?got me thinkin....hmm....if there's the interest n no feeling does it work?but come to think of it.....what common interest does john n i hv....?issit true tt with the pressence of feeling there's a possibility to compromise...?too tired to think.....i dunno what he wants.....lost it....i forgot how does the feeling of fallin for someone feels n how if someone is showing interest........hohoh~prob my heart is numb......or prob i'm dumb....keke~ oh well......it's beyond my control.....hope things will come to light soon...~~i'm exhausted.......

~~is the feeling more impt than common interests?~~